~`_ The Spirit of the Eagle speaks into the soul _'~

I am thinking it's a shame when you have to leave your own home just to get some peace and quiet.

I am feeling like a spare tire. Get me out when you need me, put me back and forget about me when you don't.

Unless there is no one else at all available to deliver! ARGH! I asked her why the last time I saw her. She said, facetiously, to ask the hospital. I'm like, what's the problem? She is a GREAT physician. I adore her and her bedside manner. She is straightforward and tactful. Honest and helpful. Everything you NEED in such a sensitive situation as pregnancy, labor, and delivery. I have a feeling that it has to do with Malpractice insurance for doctors. The rates have gone higher, and it's harder for doctors than it ever has been before to stay in practice. *sigh* I will probably end up with some man delivering my sweet little girl NOT my or my husband's idea of fun, but that's what I get for being high risk.

WHAT HAVE I GOTTEN MYSELF INTO???@!@@@@!!!!!

That's the thought that goes through someone's mind when they realize they are about to have a new baby, a 9 year old, and a husband who is medically 50% disabled.

I am a pretty frugal shopper. I adore having all the special reward cards you can get from every single store I ever visit.I adore having the option to get money off, earn points for freebies, and all that. It makes me feel better about spending money for things I need *or want* but mostly NEED. My favorites are the ones for shopping in grocery stores. I would rather have a store that gives me savings to begin with, but extra savings are awesome, too.

If you don't want to read about me whining about pregnancy, I totally excuse you from this post LOL.

I have had to compare my pregnancies for the sake of this pregnancy going well. I don't like comparing them, but it's necessary. I have forgotten a lot about the pregnancy, as I stated in a previous post, but I recall 99% of the labor/birthing experience. The other stuff, like testing and what happened when and all that, is a blur. Thankfully, I was meticulous in record keeping for my son, so now I have something to go from for the doctors in this pregnancy.

Just so you know, this is no walk in the park. My body, though I am a woman, is not quite built for child-bearing as it were. I am currently battling the same things that I had with my son. Some of it is later in the pregnancy than it was with him, but it's there all the same. Right now, I am borderline pre-eclampsia. I have slight placenta previa. Still on pelvic rest, no heavy lifting, no walking a lot, no walking up and down steps...no mopping, sweeping... pretty much everything I NEED to do to keep the house straight. Of course, I am thankful that my husband is understanding and helpful and so is my son.

Of course, being that I am pregnant and about to be 32, I know how important it really is for me NOT to be overweight after this is all over. It's so much on my mind that I have been looking for ways to lose weight after the ordeal is over. Things like hcg Austin and all the goodies that go alone with it are popping up on the radar now. I was 184 lbs when I got pregnant this time. I was steadily at 160 between moves from NJ to NY. Before that I was able to hold at 140 very nicely and still wear all my jeans. When I got pregnant with my son I was 135, finished up at 175 (10 of which was total water weight), went down to 125 while breastfeeding, then shot up to 140 afterwards. This pregnancy I had a lot more muscle and a little belly to start with. I can be 160 as long as most of it is muscle, but I ain't trying to hear 180 anything I know how to stay in shape, so here's hoping that I can get my abs rock hard again before breastfeeding is done and I don't have such a wonderful weight loss helper.

We have been drawn in to the new pawn reality shows on 2 cable channels. I would have never dreamed that I would get such a thrill out of watching people sell their gold chain to a pawn broker and make out like a bandit. I would have never thought that watching people get low balled on the other show would make me so frustrated, either. I find it funny how these types of reality shows have really taken off over the last year or so. I am waiting impatiently for the swamp reality show, while diligently watching my favorite families duke it out in their own lives on tv for all to see. A few years ago I would have only watched things like singing competitions and who was going to get off the island first. What a difference  

I am thinking OMG JUST SHUT UPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!

I blocked so much that happened during my pregnancy, labor, and delivery with my son. I go back and read the journal I kept for him and cannot believe what I am reading sometimes! I remember so much differently than what I actually wrote down.