~`_ The Spirit of the Eagle speaks into the soul _'~

The immediate buzz I have found after taking the time to really look at mindsay again for the first time in months is about how mindsay is dying. Heh. DYING.

Here is my take on the subject for any of those who care to read:

I have been feeling the loss of verve on mindsay for a good number of months now. When I first came to this beautiful place in June of 2005, I was astounded that such a community could exist. It was full of life, love, and peaceful communication *for the most part*. There were poets, photographers, and inspirational thoughts. There were people who you could truly get to know and count amongst your friends. Mindsay was my haven of safety from all the stormy battles of the internet. It was nice to read honest commentary from someone's heart about their own life, their struggles, their joys...their feelings were real...genuine...true.

Unfortunately since then, I have seen the world of Mindsay become so torn you might mistake the community for confetti. Ugly phrases and evil minds have been stalking, tormenting, belittling, and crushing every blogger in their path. These fiends didn't want to share ideas or discuss subjects rationally. No! They were on the hunt to kill and destroy. I have seen bloggers flee from their very presence never to be seen again on Mindsay. Even I was attacked on more than one occassion by the passers-by who wished me ill. They took away my sense of home and belonging...made me cautious.

Then I saw the community in general take a more precarious tone. Negativity began to flow through every inch of Mindsay, trying to cover every shimmer of hope, every gleam of gold that would be found underneath their sticky tar. Still, hope and light shine through the cracks...and when I find them I hold them close to me, pushing away all the bad so that I can still have that little piece of good to which I cling...that hope for which I crave.

I have found a few very good friends on Mindsay. I have found some enemies. I had found a home, but have since been searching for that place where I could feel safe to share my ideas again...safe to be myself again..to explore the recesses of my soul. Though the search continues, I stay on here...still hoping that we, as a community, will get back to the basics of civility and conduct and begin once again to be the great community that once was.